Two or three times in my life God in His mercy touched my heart, and twice before my conversion I was under deep conviction.
During
the American war [Civil War], I was a surgeon in the United States
Army, and after the battle of Gettysburg there were many hundred wounded
soldiers in my hospital, amongst whom were twenty-eight who had been
wounded so severely that they required my services at once.
Some
whose legs had to be amputated, some their arms, and others both their
arm and leg. One of the latter was a boy who had been but three months
in the service, and being too young for a soldier had enlisted as a
drummer. When my assistant surgeon and one of my stewards wished to
administer chloroform, previous to the amputation, the young soldier
turned his head aside and positively refused to receive it. When the
steward told him that it was the doctor’s orders, he said: “Send the
doctor to me.”
When I came to his bedside, I said: “Young man, why
do you refuse chloroform? When I found you on the battlefield you were
so far gone that I thought it hardly worth while to pick you up; but
when you opened those large blue eyes I thought you had a mother
somewhere who might, at that moment, be thinking of her boy. I did not
want you to die on the field, so ordered you to be brought here; but you
have now lost so much blood that you are too weak to endure an
operation without chloroform, therefore you had better let me give you
some.”
He laid his hand on mine, and looking me in the face, said:
“Doctor, one Sunday afternoon, in the Sabbath-school, when I was nine
and a half years old, I gave my heart to Christ. I learned to trust Him
then; I have been trusting Him ever since, and I can trust Him now. He
is my strength and my stimulant. He will support me while you amputate
my arm and leg.”
I then asked him if he would allow me to give him a little brandy.
Again
he looked me in the face saying: “Doctor, when I was about five years
old my mother knelt by my side, with her arm around my neck, and said:
‘Charlie, I am now praying to Jesus that you may never know the taste of
strong drink; your papa died a drunkard, and went down to a drunkard’s
grave, and I promised God, if it were His will that you should grow up,
that you should warn young men against the bitter cup.’ I am now
seventeen years old, but I have never tasted anything stronger than tea
and coffee, and as I am, in all probability, about to go into the
presence of my God, would you send me there with brandy on my stomach?”
The
look that boy gave me I shall never forget. At that time I hated Jesus,
but I respected that boy’s loyalty to his Savior; and when I saw how he
loved and trusted Him to the last, there was something that touched my
heart, and I did for that boy what I had never done for any other
soldier — I asked him if he wanted to see his chaplain.
“Oh! yes, sir,” was the answer.
When
Chaplain R. came, he at once knew the boy from having often met him at
the tent prayer meetings, and taking his hand said: “Well, Charlie, I am
sorry to see you in this sad condition.”
“Oh, I am all right,
sir,” he, answered. “The doctor offered me chloroform, but I declined
it; then he wished to give me brandy, which I also declined; and now, if
my Savior calls me, I can go to Him in my right mind.”
“You may
not die, Charlie,” said the chaplain “but if the Lord should call you
away, is there anything I can do for you after you are gone?”
“Chaplain,
please put your hand under my pillow and take my little Bible; in it
you will find my mother’s address; please send it to her and write a
letter, and tell her that since the day I left home I have never let a
day pass without reading a portion of God’s word, and daily praying that
God would bless my dear mother; no matter whether on the march, on the
battlefield, or in the hospital.”
“Is there anything else I can do for you, my lad?” asked the chaplain.
“Yes;
please write a letter to the superintendent of the Sands-street
Sunday-school, Brooklyn, N. Y., and tell him that the kind words, many
prayers, and good advice he gave me I have never forgotten; they have
followed me through all the dangers of battle; and now, in my dying
hour, I ask my dear Savior to bless my dear old superintendent. That is
all.”
Turning towards me he said: “Now, doctor, I am ready; and I
promise you that I will not even groan while you take off my arm and
leg, if you will not offer me chloroform.” I promised, but I had not the
courage to take the knife in my hand to perform the operation without
first going into the next room and taking a little stimulant myself to
perform my duty.
While cutting through the flesh, Charlie Coulson
never groaned; but when I took the saw to separate the bone, the lad
took the corner of his pillow in his mouth, and all that I could hear
him utter was: “O Jesus, blessed Jesus! stand by me now.” He kept his
promise, and never groaned.
That night I could not sleep, for
whichever way I turned I saw those soft blue eyes, and when I closed
mine, the words, “Blessed Jesus, stand by me now,” kept ringing in my
ears. Between twelve and one o’clock I left my bed and visited the
hospital; a thing I had never done before unless specially called, but
such was my desire to see that boy. Upon my arrival there I was informed
by the night steward that sixteen of the hopeless cases had died, and
been carried down to the dead-house.
“How is Charlie Coulson, is he among the dead?” I asked.
“No,
sir,” answered the steward, “he is sleeping as sweetly as a babe.” When
I came up to the bed where he lay, one of the nurses informed me that,
about nine o’clock, two members of the YMCA came through the hospital to
read and sing a hymn. They were accompanied by Chaplain R., who knelt
by Charlie Coulson’s bed, and offered up a fervent and soul-stirring
prayer; after which they sang, while still upon their knees, the
sweetest of all hymns, “Jesus, lover of my soul,” in which Charlie
joined.
I could not understand how that boy, who had undergone such excruciating pain, could sing.
Five days after I had amputated that dear boy’s arm and leg, he sent
for me, and it was from him on that day I heard the first gospel sermon.
“Doctor,”
he said, “my time has come; I do not expect to see another sunrise;
but, thank God, I am ready to go; and before I die I desire to thank you
with all my heart for your kindness to me. Doctor, you are a Jew, you
do not believe in Jesus; will you please stand here and see me die
trusting my Savior to the last moment of my life?”
I tried to
stay, but I could not; for I had not the courage to stand by and see a
Christian boy die rejoicing in the love of that Jesus whom I had been
taught to hate, so I hurriedly left the room.
About twenty minutes
later a steward, who found me sitting in my private office covering my
face with my hand, said: “Doctor, Charlie Coulson wishes to see you.”
“I have just seen him,” I answered, “and I cannot see him again.”
“But, doctor, he says he must see you once more before he dies.”
I
now made up my mind to see him, say an endearing word, and let him die,
but I was determined that no word of his should influence me in the
least so far as his Jesus was concerned.
When I entered the hospital I saw he was sinking fast, so I sat down by his bed.
Asking
me to take his hand, he said: “Doctor, I love you because you are a
Jew; the best friend I have found in this world was a Jew.”
I
asked him who that was. He answered: “Jesus Christ, to whom I want to
introduce you before I die; and will you promise me, doctor, that what I
am about to say to you, you will never forget?”
I promised; and
he said “Five days ago, while you amputated my arm and leg, I prayed to
the Lord Jesus Christ to convert your soul.”
These words went deep
into my heart. I could not understand how, when I was causing him the
most intense pain, he could forget all about himself and think of
nothing but his Savior and my unconverted soul. All I could say to him
was: “Well, my dear boy, you will soon be all right.” With these words I
left him, and twelve minutes later he fell asleep, “safe in the arms of
Jesus.”
Hundreds of soldiers died in my hospital during the war;
but I only followed one to the grave, and that one was Charlie Coulson,
the drummer boy; and I rode three miles to see him buried. I had him
dressed in a new uniform, and placed in an officer’s coffin, with a
United States flag over it.
That boy’s dying words made a deep
impression upon me. I was rich at that time so far as money is
concerned, but I would have given every penny I possessed if I could
have felt towards Christ as Charlie did; but that feeling cannot be
bought with money. Alas! I soon forgot all about my Christian soldier’s
little sermon, but I could not forget the boy himself. I now know that
at that time I was under deep conviction of sin; but I fought against
Christ with all the hatred of an orthodox Jew for nearly ten years,
until, finally, the dear boy’s prayer was answered, and God converted my
soul.
About eighteen months after my conversion, I attended a
prayer meeting one evening in the city of Brooklyn. It was one of those
meetings when Christians testify to the loving kindness of their Savior.
After several of them had spoken, an elderly lady arose and said,
“Dear
friends, this may be the last time that it is my privilege to testify
for Christ. My family physician told me yesterday that my right lung is
nearly gone, and my left lung is very much affected; so at the best I
have but a short time to be with you; but what is left of me belongs to
Jesus. Oh! it is a great joy to know that I shall meet my boy with Jesus
in heaven. My son was not only a soldier for his country, but also a
soldier for Christ. He was wounded at the battle of Gettysburg, and fell
into the hands of a Jewish doctor, who amputated his arm and leg, but
he died five days after the operation. The chaplain of the regiment
wrote me a letter, and sent me my boy’s Bible. In that letter I was
informed that my Charlie in his dying hour sent for that Jewish doctor,
and said to him: “Doctor, before I die I wish to tell you that five days
ago, while you amputated my arm and leg, I prayed to the Lord Jesus
Christ to convert your soul.”
When I heard this lady’s
testimony, I could sit still no longer. I left my seat, crossed the
room, and taking her hand, said: “God bless you, my dear sister; your
boy’s prayer has been heard and answered. I am the Jewish doctor for
whom your Charlie prayed, and his Savior is now my Savior.”
By Dr. M. L. Rossvally
Storry submitted by: Ifeanyichukwu Akanegbu
Storry submitted by: Ifeanyichukwu Akanegbu
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