Love, I remember a few years back when I was in school,
my english literature teacher was telling us about Romeo and Juliet
and then she asked us, What is love?, a goofy kid from the back said “miss,
love is friendship” and the whole class started laughing. Now lets get a
little serious, What is love? Well, whatever it is, true love is
definitely something hard to find these days. The story I’m going to tell
you is the absolute truth of my life and I hope you like it.
I still remember the day I first saw her. It was my cousin’s wedding and she was sitting alone in a corner. She was looking beautiful, but the aspect that impressed me most about her was her simplicity. During prayer time she was the only girl who covered her head with a scarf. Her eyes had that innocence that I fell for her. I had never been taken down like that from any girl. I was certain I was in love and it was love at First-sight. Before that day I used to laugh at the concept of love at first-sight, sometimes I used to laugh at love. But I’m not laughing now.
About a week later, that same girl shows up at my math class. I was shocked, at first I thought I’d never see her again, but maybe God has some other plans for me. I was absolutely ecstatic, however, I found it really hard to talk to her because I was extremely nervous. So one day I deliberately left my pen in the car and then randomly asked her ” You gotta pen”, she replied ” yeah there you go”. After class I returned her pen back and thanked her, we exchanged names and then she left. My best friend was standing right behind me and asked ” You like her, dont you?”, I replied “ haha what, no bro, what makes you say that?”, he responds ” come on its written all over your face and I know you”. I confessed but told him not to say a word about it.
Slowly and gradually I became really good friends with that girl sharing almost everything with each other. My best friend was guiding me all the way. One day after class she comes to me and tells me her dad is sending her to America for further studies. It came to me as a shock, I told my best friend about the whole situation, he told me that I had to tell her right -away how I feel about her before its too late. This was the hardest part, I was extremely afraid because I knew my friendship might be at risk as well, but I had to to do it because she was leaving in around four months time, and it had become a now or never situation for me.
I called her in this newly opened restaurant Dejavu, I told her the whole tuition group will be there for dinner. Over there I had planned to tell her how I felt about her, I didn’t intend to ask her out or anything, I just wanted to tell her that I was in love with her. I still remember that night at Dejavu, she was dressed in white and was looking extremely gorgeous. After the dinner when all my friends were leaving, I told her to stay back, only my best friend pretended that he had left but he was at the back watching how I do. “Hey Z I think” …….(small pause) I just closed my eyes and said ” Z I’m in love with you”. I kept my eyes closed, there was this moment of silence for like five seconds. Five very long seconds which seemed to be as long as a day. When I opened my eyes she had sat on a chair right next to me which frightened me even more. I said “please say something”, for some reason or the other she started smiling and then suddenly said ” I gotta go” and ran off. My best friend came running towards me “What the hell happened bro ?, when I told him what had happened he thought I had been rejected. But I thought otherwise, it didn’t seem like a rejection to me. I was really confused, there were several ideas going through my head and all of a sudden around 1 A.M I received a text from her saying ” I’m so sorry for running of like that, its just that I had never been in a situation like that and I panicked” a couple of minutes later I received another text from her saying” I really like you too”.
I was over the moon when I read that message, I can’t really describe in words how happy I was. That night proved to be the night of my life, we chatted on the internet for like three hours, mainly taking about how our relationship should be like, this was the first relationship for both of us and we both wanted it to be special. After that day, my life changed drastically, everything seemed great. She had become a source of motivation for me to work hard and do well in my studies. I remember that she used call me and wake me up every morning for school, so that I didn’t miss my classes. She made sure that I was prepared for my tests and my exams. Sometimes she was more hard on me than my own mother. But I still loved her more than anything in this world, she meant the world to me and I could’ve done anything for her. Those three and a half months were definitely the best days of my life.
Now came the time, summer had started and she was about to leave in a week for America. She came up to me and said ” I’ll talk to my dad and tell him I don’t wanna go, I’m happy here, there is no reason for me to go”. I still think of that day and ask myself “why did I let her go”. The reason I wanted her to go was because our country was in trouble and I wanted her to be safe. She also got robbed a month ago on gun-point, that incident made me even more conscious about her safety. I told her ” Hey Z listen, right now the situation of our city is very unstable, so this is your chance you have to go and I’ll join you in spring.”
It was August 7th, the night she was leaving, we met in the evening at a cafĂ©, this is the moment I can never forget. She was in tears and said” I want you to be a good boy, stay out of trouble” and then she kissed my forehead and said “You better call me every night or I’ll kill you”. Even I was about to break into tears but somehow I held myself together.
Now she was gone, a few weeks after she left, I started to realize her importance in my life. I missed her like anything, we used to call each other almost every day. One night I called her, her phone was not responding, I thought she might’ve run out of battery so I left her a message. When I woke up in the morning, I eagerly grabbed my phone to see whether she had called or texted back, but there was no response so I went back to sleep. Around a couple of hours later my phone rang, I thought it was her, I quickly grabbed my phone but it was her best friend who told me Z had been involved in a car accident, I was shaken, I said” she’s gonna be alright right? I mean it’s not serious is it ?” Her friend replied “ her car was taken down by a drunk truck driver, and it’s quite serious”. I grew extremely worried, and I for the first time in my life I felt helpless because I couldn’t do anything, I couldn’t even be there with her when she needed me the most. I prayed for her, and cried while I prayed, the same night I got the news she had past away.
I couldn’t really believe what had happened, it seemed like one bad nightmare, I went into a state of shock, because I never expected life to take me down like this. I went through a long phase of depression. I couldn’t deal with the fact that she was no longer going to be in my life anymore. I was completely shattered and it was extremely tough to cope with this situation. Its been two years now since her death, I’ve never even thought about getting into a relationship with anyone else. I will always love her no matter what and I’m definitely still missing her. All of those who are reading this, I want to give you all one advice, if you are truly in love with a person, never let that person go far away from you.
I still remember the day I first saw her. It was my cousin’s wedding and she was sitting alone in a corner. She was looking beautiful, but the aspect that impressed me most about her was her simplicity. During prayer time she was the only girl who covered her head with a scarf. Her eyes had that innocence that I fell for her. I had never been taken down like that from any girl. I was certain I was in love and it was love at First-sight. Before that day I used to laugh at the concept of love at first-sight, sometimes I used to laugh at love. But I’m not laughing now.
About a week later, that same girl shows up at my math class. I was shocked, at first I thought I’d never see her again, but maybe God has some other plans for me. I was absolutely ecstatic, however, I found it really hard to talk to her because I was extremely nervous. So one day I deliberately left my pen in the car and then randomly asked her ” You gotta pen”, she replied ” yeah there you go”. After class I returned her pen back and thanked her, we exchanged names and then she left. My best friend was standing right behind me and asked ” You like her, dont you?”, I replied “ haha what, no bro, what makes you say that?”, he responds ” come on its written all over your face and I know you”. I confessed but told him not to say a word about it.
Slowly and gradually I became really good friends with that girl sharing almost everything with each other. My best friend was guiding me all the way. One day after class she comes to me and tells me her dad is sending her to America for further studies. It came to me as a shock, I told my best friend about the whole situation, he told me that I had to tell her right -away how I feel about her before its too late. This was the hardest part, I was extremely afraid because I knew my friendship might be at risk as well, but I had to to do it because she was leaving in around four months time, and it had become a now or never situation for me.
I called her in this newly opened restaurant Dejavu, I told her the whole tuition group will be there for dinner. Over there I had planned to tell her how I felt about her, I didn’t intend to ask her out or anything, I just wanted to tell her that I was in love with her. I still remember that night at Dejavu, she was dressed in white and was looking extremely gorgeous. After the dinner when all my friends were leaving, I told her to stay back, only my best friend pretended that he had left but he was at the back watching how I do. “Hey Z I think” …….(small pause) I just closed my eyes and said ” Z I’m in love with you”. I kept my eyes closed, there was this moment of silence for like five seconds. Five very long seconds which seemed to be as long as a day. When I opened my eyes she had sat on a chair right next to me which frightened me even more. I said “please say something”, for some reason or the other she started smiling and then suddenly said ” I gotta go” and ran off. My best friend came running towards me “What the hell happened bro ?, when I told him what had happened he thought I had been rejected. But I thought otherwise, it didn’t seem like a rejection to me. I was really confused, there were several ideas going through my head and all of a sudden around 1 A.M I received a text from her saying ” I’m so sorry for running of like that, its just that I had never been in a situation like that and I panicked” a couple of minutes later I received another text from her saying” I really like you too”.
I was over the moon when I read that message, I can’t really describe in words how happy I was. That night proved to be the night of my life, we chatted on the internet for like three hours, mainly taking about how our relationship should be like, this was the first relationship for both of us and we both wanted it to be special. After that day, my life changed drastically, everything seemed great. She had become a source of motivation for me to work hard and do well in my studies. I remember that she used call me and wake me up every morning for school, so that I didn’t miss my classes. She made sure that I was prepared for my tests and my exams. Sometimes she was more hard on me than my own mother. But I still loved her more than anything in this world, she meant the world to me and I could’ve done anything for her. Those three and a half months were definitely the best days of my life.
Now came the time, summer had started and she was about to leave in a week for America. She came up to me and said ” I’ll talk to my dad and tell him I don’t wanna go, I’m happy here, there is no reason for me to go”. I still think of that day and ask myself “why did I let her go”. The reason I wanted her to go was because our country was in trouble and I wanted her to be safe. She also got robbed a month ago on gun-point, that incident made me even more conscious about her safety. I told her ” Hey Z listen, right now the situation of our city is very unstable, so this is your chance you have to go and I’ll join you in spring.”
It was August 7th, the night she was leaving, we met in the evening at a cafĂ©, this is the moment I can never forget. She was in tears and said” I want you to be a good boy, stay out of trouble” and then she kissed my forehead and said “You better call me every night or I’ll kill you”. Even I was about to break into tears but somehow I held myself together.
Now she was gone, a few weeks after she left, I started to realize her importance in my life. I missed her like anything, we used to call each other almost every day. One night I called her, her phone was not responding, I thought she might’ve run out of battery so I left her a message. When I woke up in the morning, I eagerly grabbed my phone to see whether she had called or texted back, but there was no response so I went back to sleep. Around a couple of hours later my phone rang, I thought it was her, I quickly grabbed my phone but it was her best friend who told me Z had been involved in a car accident, I was shaken, I said” she’s gonna be alright right? I mean it’s not serious is it ?” Her friend replied “ her car was taken down by a drunk truck driver, and it’s quite serious”. I grew extremely worried, and I for the first time in my life I felt helpless because I couldn’t do anything, I couldn’t even be there with her when she needed me the most. I prayed for her, and cried while I prayed, the same night I got the news she had past away.
I couldn’t really believe what had happened, it seemed like one bad nightmare, I went into a state of shock, because I never expected life to take me down like this. I went through a long phase of depression. I couldn’t deal with the fact that she was no longer going to be in my life anymore. I was completely shattered and it was extremely tough to cope with this situation. Its been two years now since her death, I’ve never even thought about getting into a relationship with anyone else. I will always love her no matter what and I’m definitely still missing her. All of those who are reading this, I want to give you all one advice, if you are truly in love with a person, never let that person go far away from you.
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